"Goodbye"
My dear sweet darling Logan,
Words cannot describe,
How much your love meant to me
When you were still alive.
But you cannot begin to know,
How you still live in me.
I think about you every day,
And wonder how this could be.
My love for you will never cease;
It will grow stronger through the years,
As I flip through your pictures,
With laughter and with tears.
You were our miracle baby,
And I wanted so much to believe.
That we would have you always,
That you would never leave.
I had so many fears,
As I went into labor that day.
But when I saw your precious face,
My worries were swept away.
I wanted to be the perfect mom,
The best that I could be.
To show you unconditional love,
Like my mother had for me.
Although your life was short,
You touched too many hearts to name.
My dear sweet darling Logan,
Our world won't be the same.
Memories flood my head,
As I sit on the swing outside.
I stare at your wagon,
And recall how you liked to ride.
And as I put my makeup on,
And dream of the son I once knew,
How you wanted to climb up in my lap,
And look in the mirror too.
I will never forget how you loved to dance,
You would shake your head to the beat.
I would pick you up and twirl you around,
Then dance with you on my feet.
On Sunday mornings you woke me up,
You wanted your breakfast "right then".
You'd come in the kitchen and help scramble eggs,
Then get them all over the den.
You were so good when I took you shopping,
You knew mommy was known for that knack.
But once in a while, I would look back and smile,
As I saw clothes flying off of the rack.
Oh Logan, sweet Logan, I have beautiful memories
Of the boy you used to be.
I'll hold onto these, for what pains me most,
Are the memories I'll never see.
You said "momma" and "daddy" and "football",
Would that have been your favorite sport?
Would you have been a fireman or a doctor,
Or maybe a lawyer in the court?
I'll never see you walk down that aisle,
With a beautiful girl on your arm.
And I'll never get to see your face
As you witness your own firstborn.
I will always love you, and hold you close to my heart,
Although I was left behind.
I must realize that God needed you more,
For special angels are hard to find.
When your life was over down here on earth,
Our whole world went still.
So now we must pray and get strength from God,
And to understand that it was His will.
It's very difficult to live without you, my son,
But I will continue to try.
Even though I never wanted you to go,
I wasn't ready to say "Goodbye".August 24, 1999 - May 5, 2001
(c) Donna Vick Jones All Rights Reserved
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