Well, once again it is not looking good. My temperature is dropping
again and I'm expecting my stupid period in a day or so. I was feeling very
positive about this month and it was all for nothing. What a bummer. I was
so frustrated when I woke up and saw the lower temperature that I packed all
my pregnancy and baby books into a box and chucked them into the closet.
I'm not even going to look at them until I am definitely pregnant. It is
too depressing. I know that I am only on my second month of trying but I
guess I expected that since I know that I ovulate I wouldn't have any
trouble. Well, guess again, this is just torture for the planner in me and
there is nothing I can do about it. I decided not to chart next cycle. I
need a break from the regiment. I am not even sure that Larry and I will be
in the same state next time I ovulate. I am going to Maine for Thanksgiving
and he's staying here since he has to work. I'm not coming home until Sat,
the 28th and it is possible that I will O the 27th which would make that
cycle a washout. I'm hoping that my period won't start till tomorrow at the
earliest so that I can have a chance to O after I return. Again, another
thing I can't control. I try to reassure myself that one way or another
eventually we will have a family. I just have to remember not to put my
life on hold until that day comes.
Schoolwork is still looming. I did complete one of my papers and
started the research for another but I can feel the procrastination growing.
It will all get done on time. I just hope I don't have to stay up all night
to finish everything. I'll check back when AF arrives to update everyone.
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