Well, since it's 1 a.m. when I write this I am officially 3 dpo
(days past ovulation). My mittelshmertz arrived about 7 pm on Thursday,
just like clockwork, and I rushed Larry to finish his pie and meet me in the
bedroom (like those 5 minutes really mattered, I'm so obsessive!). We "did
it" and then "did it" again on Friday. I am really hoping that we'll be
first time lucky especially since I know EXACTLY when I ovulated but know
that there are no guarantees and many, many people don't get pregnant the
first month of trying in spite of doing everything right. Still, I am
hopeful.
I had a dream last night that we had a baby girl and she was
perfect and beautiful but the bad part was that throughout the dream Larry
was being such a jerk. I was changing her and stuck the tape to her belly
(wrong, wrong) and then realized I hadn't folded the top down for the belly
button stump (even though she didn't appear to have one) and I was asking
Larry to help me and get the cornstarch etc. and he was being so cross and
unhelpful. Then I wanted him to help me do something else and he kept
saying "I have to go to bed" "I have to get up in the morning" I was so
pissed! Then I tried to breastfeed her and she wouldn't do it and he was
giving me all this grief and I was so frustrated and then I woke up. It's
probably a good thing that he'd already left for work when I woke up because
I was still fuming and might have given him hell for his behavior in my
dream. How rational is that? I'm glad that I know that won't happen in
real life (thank GOD). So, I've decided to take this dream as an omen that
I am pregnant and the baby will be a girl (How's that for grasping at straws?).
As for the rest of my life things are still pretty nuts. School is
getting busy, I'm starting to have papers due and projects to work on. I
have piles of reading that are looming over me but oh well, everything seems
to get done on time somehow. The counseling center has been really busy
lately, I'm there Wed. & Fridays and this Friday we had like 8 emergencies
throughout the day. Phew, at least it wasn't boring. Larry has been really
busy this month, lots of call and moonlighting shifts. I like the extra
money but it's hard to not see him very often. Next month should be better.
I had a fun filled evening tonight, I rented a movie and put all my loose
pictures into albums. What a big project that was but I feel good that it's
done. I had so many pictures of my adorable niece Lexi that were not in
albums and I figured I'd better get those taken care of before we have a
child and really get behind.
Well, since it's after 1 in the morning I'm thinking that I should
go to bed. I have lots of schoolwork to do tomorrow and can't afford to
sleep half the day. Only 7 days till I can test, the countdown begins...
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