Well unfortunately the news might not be so good. I thought I should be
about 6 1/2 weeks pregnant (due 8/11/99). Sunday night my dh and I made love
and afterwards I was bleeding. According to all the books and everything
I've read, sex is supposed to be okay and that it won't hurt the baby if it
were a normal pregnancy. But I don't think bleeding is normal (it was more
than spotting) - it seemed like a lot (but not gushing) and bright red. I
haven't had any bleeding since then - it stopped and I haven't have any pain
or cramping.
I had an ob appointment yesterday afternoon. The doctor was unable to find a
gestational sac in my uterus with the vaginal ultrasound so I left the
office with three possibilities - either I've already miscarried, I have an
ectopic pregnancy or it's a normal pregnancy but I'm not as far along as I
thought and it would be too soon to see a sac with the ultrasound. I'm
pretty sure he thinks I've miscarried although he isn't ruling out the other
possibility. Dh suggested that a miscarriage could be why I haven't been
feeling a lot of pregnancy symptoms. The doctor said that I could have
miscarried anytime ago but that a urine test could still come up positive
even if I had (I've had 5 urine tests come up positive). After the
ultrasound he sent me to the lab to have the HCG levels in my blood tested.
When he gets those back I guess he can tell whether or not they are even
close to the level they should be for my pregnancy stage. If they are close
to that number he will send me back for a repeat test and I guess the levels
are supposed to double every 48 hours if the pregnancy is progressing
normally. If the level isn't close to where it should be but the test is
still coming up that I'm pregnant then I guess I've miscarried or it could
be an ectopic pregnancy which he would have to determine. I have to go back
on Wednesday, December 23rd for another vaginal ultrasound. He said if I
have a normal pregnancy and if I'm not as far along as I thought - he should
definitely be able to see a sac by then. If not.......He said if I had any
severe pain or cramping before my next appointment to go immediately to the
emergency room.
So, I guess I have to wait another week and a half to know for sure. That's
the worst part. If I have miscarried, I just want to know for sure, mourn,
heal and think about trying again as soon as possible. At this point I
don't know what to think. I am expecting and assuming the worst just so I'm
emotionally prepared. I still really don't know when I would have
miscarried....nothing has ever come out - no clots or tissue or anything.
Maybe I do have an ectopic pregnancy, but I would have thought I would be
feeling pain and cramping by now. The only thing for me to do is wait,
wonder and worry...All I want to do is cry.
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