Tom and I have decided to wait until May to start trying to
conceive. Although I really wanted to get pregnant
sooner, waiting is the best thing for us. Were in the middle
of buying a house, and I'm trying to get enrolled in college
so I can finish my degree, so things will be busy around
here for the next couple of months.I haven't been on BC
for a few years and we ML the other night, and we didn't
use protection, but did use another method for BC. Call
me silly, but part of me hopes that "one got away". I've
even gone to the extent of chanting "swim baby, swim!".
Can you imagine that? Either I can keep hoping that
there was a lucky little sperm, or I can keep telling myself
that it is best to wait until we have it all planned out like we
wanted to originally. Tom would be a wonderful father,
he's so great with my son, and I know he would be a very
doting father. He would treat me like a queen during a
pregnancy, I can't wait for that either because I didn't get
pampered during my first pregnancy. What is with this
baby fever anyway? Some chemical buried deep within a
woman that only comes out when it isn't the greatest time
to get pregnant? Is there ever a good time to get
pregnant?
I suffered a miscarriage in June of 97, and I am very
fearful that it will happen again. It was physically painful
as well as emotional. I think that if I had another
miscarriage I would give up trying to have another child.
There is just too much heartache in losing a child.
I bought this book by Landrum B. Shettles, it's called
"How to choose the sex of your baby". We both really
want a girl more than anything. So were going to use the
methods in the book to try and concieve a girl. Keep your
fingers crossed that it works!! I told my mom yesterday that
we were talking about trying to start a family in May, I was
nervous about telling her but she seemed ok with the idea.
Time for me to go now, I'm going to try to stifle some of
these baby cravings!!
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