8:00 AM
Have I mentioned yet that I really, really want to be pregnant and that
I tend to be obsessed about it?
My period was due yesterday. I'm never late. It's still not here. The
hpt was negative.
You see, last month we weren't actively trying to get pregnant but we
weren't actively not trying either. I haven't given up yet but the
waiting is killing me. I 've read of many women who had to take three
or more consecutive tests before they read positive. Even so I find
myself running to the bathroom every 30 minutes to check if my period
has started and also to pee. My face has been a bit flushed since
yesterday morning but I feel okay. The interesting thing is that many
of my joints are popping out. Yesterday alone I dislocated my ankle,
knee, shoulder, hip and elbow when usually I only have one joint acting
up at a time. Progesterone levels rapidly increase just after
conception and increased progesterone levels usually cause me to have
joint laxity.
I hope that I am. I pray that I am. I wish I knew for sure. I'm not
good at waiting.
I'll be going out this afternoon to do some repair work on a friend's
car so unless my period comes I won't be adding to this until late this
evening or tomorrow morning. I will definately buy another hpt while
I'm out if I can do it without my husband knowing. If I am + I want to
surprise him.
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