My name is Detra Carter and I live in Bloomington,
Indiana. I am 28 years old and have been married for almost nine months. I
am happy to be starting this journal even though I am late in starting it.
I would like to have some documentation of my thoughts during this time so
that I will be able to share them with the baby that will be here in the
Spring. My due date is April 7, 1999 which means I am about 27 weeks along
now. I had pretty classic pregnancy symptoms, some afternoon sickness,
slight headaches on occasion, no vomiting (yeah), sore breasts, etc. Now I
just get tired a little quicker than normal and I continue to watch my
abdomen grow.
Being pregnant has been pretty scary and exciting
all at the same time. Scary because I have two step daughters through my
husbands first marriage and I played mom to them this past summer. They are
9 and 8 years old and I had the toughest summer of my life. Really, by the
end of it, I thought I had made the worst mistake of my life. I wanted to
get pregnant pretty quickly when I first got married but By last August I
was ready to wait another year. Well, by then it was too late because I was
already pregnant. I do regret getting pregnant so quickly but not being
pregnant now. Now I have concluded that I will make the best out of every
situation I get myself into. Life is full of peeks, valleys and plains.
It is my job to just keep on moving :-)
This pregnancy is exciting because I will have the
opportunity to see another person come out of me. I will get to see what my
genes along with my husbands will actually create. I have the opportunity
to love and nurture some from their beginning and try to give them positive
reinforcements and examples to follow. It will be interesting to say the
least.
I'm not sure of how my husband feels about this
pregnancy. He really loves is girls, especially his oldest, who looks a lot
like his side of the family. He does not get to spend a lot of time with
them because he moved to a different state. So I think he feels a little
guilty about that sometimes. Actually, I feel guilty about it too, but it
wasn't my decision to move. He moved before I met him. Anyway, if we have
another girl I just don't know how he will adjust. I would love to have a
little girl or boy, so I just don't want anymore unneeded stress in my life.
God please let me have a boy! Then next time we can have a girl. But the
decision really isn't up to me.
Well I have rambled enough. That's all I have to
say about me.
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