It's week 35 and I am so glad. It seems that I have
grown quite a bit in the last week or so and I am considerably more
uncomfortable. I have been able to keep exercising and keep my routine
basically the same though. I really like raisin bran and ice cream these
days. Those are the two things that don't give me heart burn. Milk is
truly my friend:-) I am so excited about having this child.
I have a dilemma. My husband and I need more
income. I work 30 hours per week and my job is phasing out this semester.
I work at an academic institution. Financially, I need to work full time,
but to be honest, I don't want to. I want to be able to spend time with the
baby when it comes and have time to take care of myself as well. My mother
never worked full time when I was growing up so and I am sorry to say that
everyone that I have ever known who is married and has children and works
full time, have marital problems. My husband and I have only been married
for one year and we have already had our share of marital problems without
our own children. I did have step kids for the summer.
Another thing is, I am used to working out and I
would like to take up my music again. I'm afraid that if I get a 40 hour
job, I'll lose the little of myself that I have now. I have a masters
degree in vocal performance and I'm not doing anything with it. I was
offered a dream job in Hollywood last year, but because I had just gotten
married and we were going to have the girls for the summer and everything
was so new, I turned it down, thinking that I would try again later. Now I
am totally confused. I don't know what to do. I know what my options are
but I just don't know what to choose. Your prayers for good decision making
would be appreciated.
Detra
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